Its been a few minutes since i last posted anything to my journal. And alot has happened.
My plans to move to NYC to finish school fell through when i couldnt get an audition for the theatre dept at the new school before the new semester is to begin. And since i didnt think it would be a good idea to go into a new school with no idea about the school itself, or the area or anything really. SO, for the time being, it looks like im here in Cullowhee, for better or for worse, im not sure quite yet.
Studying theatre thusfar is going very very well. I went last week to the North Carolina Theatre Convention. It was an experience. I didnt get through the screening process for admission to SETC (south eastern theatre conference) But there are ways around this...ways ill be taking advantage of, thats for sure.
Sex life...still pretty much the same..there isnt any! Maybe im just bound to be celebate for the rest of my life...Like a monk..but with much better clothing.
My dad has come home from Iraw twice since his departure in January. Once was in June, and Another was the end of october. Each time he has come home, I have either been given the wrong dates of his visit, or simply not told about it until it is too late to make any kind of attempt to see him. My younger (half)brother is aware of my sexuality, and Im wondering if My dad hasnt been told. And if so is this having the effect of my apparent exile from the family. I try to put on the front that this doesnt bother me..But..it hurts..alot.
The holidays went really well. I got to spend it with family at home, and in the mountains of Eastern TN. Got to do some catching up with my oldest (half)brother and his family. I also got to see my dogs for the first time in a few months, which always makes me feel great. However it was a shorter visit than I had wanted. No matter, Ill be home for Christmas break in a couple of weeks.
Tonight there has been something running through my mind. I cant figure out why, in this time, as advanced as the world has gotten, as far as we have evolved as a people, There is still so much hate, and intollerance, biggotry, closed mindedness, ignorance. I know this is something said so much in these online journals, and Im not trying to sound like im whining here..But the world and people in the world can be really fucking cruel. It doesnt take much to make a person feel like shit in this day in age. But, it takes even less to make someone feel good about who they are.
Okay, im gonna take my morose self away from here and go watch family guy.